well...i hate to admit it but...its nite time again...well...ok la...it gets dark everyday...so i no not muc of a choice if no wat i mean...well...today after tinkin too muc...again...i realise tt i haven realli told anyone everything abt myself...as in the weird behaviour i hav...n stuff lik tt...ya u shld understand wat i m tryin to say la...
well i tink today den i realise i realli hate nite...coz...i get into bad moods or mood swing if tts wat u wan to call it mostly at nite...n wat makes things worse is...its for no particular reason...haiz...i rather sad la...
ya i no dere r mani out dere worse den mi...i shld b glad wit wat i hav now...n not grumble so muc...i mean i oso tell ppl i counsel tt la...but juz cant help it la...juz now daryl say i hav "sixth sense" tt is too strong...sumtimes so strong tt makes mi "forecast" sth...wich ppl find ridiculous...n realise in the end tt sadly wat i "forecast" is true...
i kind of agree wit daryl la...but den hor i dun tink my "forecast" r always accurate...coz sumtimes dey r the opposite...but den again...it might bcoz i m confused most of the time...so i cant realli analyse the situation wit more precision...
but sad to say la...i mean humans includin mi r lik tt...when u no sth bad will result...u more often choose not to blive tt i will n continue doin wat u intend to do...n end up starin at the result "forecasted"...its so ironic la...haiz...y cant we all learn to accept reality...ya sum might say...tell tt to urself...ok i no...i m tryin veri hard le...trust mi...
rite now...i feel so lik...erm...how shld i put it...lonely wld b the simplier term to use...actually come to tink of it...the other time zhenyu told mi i need a gf...i kind of agreed...coz i m lik sumone hu "cant live alone" one...but now tt i tink abt it rite...yes i need a gf...but mayb for now...a gd listener hu can understand mi...hard to find...rare species...
yeah...sum of u understands mi but...the prob is dere is dis barrier tt stops mi from askin the favor...as in sth lik dun wan to bother or ma fan tt kind of thing...i no by sayin dis...sum of u will lik say wao lao...wat r brothers/friends for man...ya i agree...tts precisely i dun wish to drag u into dis...coz seriously...i m not sure if average person might b able to take it when i start vomittin all my stuff out...not say its nvm for the person tt i m lookin for to take such shit...but den its juz diff la...i mean the person muz understand in order to b able to "apply"...
aiya...write until lik tt...i wonder if anyone understands a not lor...but watever it is la...i write dis entry not in expect of any respond...although responds r most welcome...but den hor...its more of a let things out thing...i mean lik the ultimate purpose for mi bloggin is not to let ppl wats goin on...although ppl do get to no...but its more of lettin things out rather den bottle dem up...it sort of destresses mi or apeace my anger...sth lik tt la...but sort of onli la...but better den nth la...so sumtimes if i write ridculous stuff again...juz ignore it la...i mean if u ask mi again the next day i might not recall wat was the reason of writing it...haha...:p
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tt day i was chattin wit alvin...anyway juz a bit of info abt him...he is not the nhds alvin aka zafit...he is a og mate + ex jc classmate in jj...well how we got to b friends n all tt long story...kind of interestin if u ask mi...i mean lik i feel tt dis friendship has interestin developments...haha...crappy ones too...lol...alvin agree a not?haha...
anyway i shant tok abt dis time...coz the aim of dis section today is touch a bit of the topic stress...well as we all no...stress can b quite a big topic...so big tt u can tok till zhongyi's cows come home...lol...zhongyi come home liao ma...looks lik haven la...
but nvm...i juz wan to touch a bit on its definition...anyway as i was sayin...i was tokin to alvin the other day...he got to no tt i was veri stressed thru my blog n stuff...so he was lik sort of consoling mi...ask mi take it ez...stuff lik tt...sori cant remember the details of the conversation...anyway he came up wit dis definition wich i find quite interestin n true..."stress is caused by worryin abt the unknown tt lies in the future" ya i no alvin...dis one not the exact one...but similar rite...if totally out tag the actual one on my tagboard...but for now the meanin is sth lik tt...
well if u all tink abt it...isnt it true...for eg...u study u stress...coz u scare u dun do well...den u test finish...u still stress coz u still scare...den after u get result...u still stress...coz u duno wat abt next time...well u still do as well or better or worse...if as well den u will stress how to improve...if better den u will stress can even better ma...if worse u stress how will u end up...
so basically wat i tryin to say tt...human worry abt almost everything...even happi go lucky ppl...onli vary in terms of degree of "paranoidness" sum ppl tend to more...n sum tend to b less...but watever it is la...stress is sth veri normal...so dun need to b scare of it...next time i will tok a bit abt stress management...for j2 jj ppl...we all got go for the stress management tok...but my version will vary a bit...coz the info will b vet by mi accountin to personal evaluation analysation n experience...
msg of the day:loneliness lurks in the hours of darkness
~ Life has to end. Love doesn’t. ~
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