sudden touch of sadness

wa...i duno wat came over mi la...suddenly all the sadness...sori ar zhenyu...even after readin ur blog still lik no help...haiz...i tink dis period realli is the toughest period of my life...not onli bcoz of A's la...juz too mani things happen at the same time lor...y muz all dis happen to mi all at a time la...ok la...its nth life threathenin...but its veri torturin la...

sumone i m such a paranoid person...onli makes things worse onli lor...i realli feel weak la...i realli need help...i tink dis is the first time i realli askin for help la...but realli i need help...but lik wtf la...help i oso muz choose...haiz...wats wrong...help oso muz choose...wat m i man...sum weirdo i m...i c how zhenyu describe his family...sumtimes i look at mine...i realli feel lik...haiz...ya i m veri lucky to hav my parents for hu dere r...but the kind of things i need from dem dey nv giv...haiz...i feel lik sum tv show kid...where is the love...

sumtimes my teachers ask mi y always so tired n y my results lik tt...u tink i no...i dun tink so lor...ok la...mayb i stress over too mani stuff...n sumtimes stuff tt doesnt concern mi...but wat u wan mi to do...i m juz lik tt...cant change le...i m hu i m...u tink if i tell dem all dis dey will blive n accept...dey will b tinkin at the back of my head tt i muz b cookin up sum story...tryin to smoke dem...but dey will tell u...dun tink so muc juz conc on ur studies...but look la...i not stupid la...wat u tinkin n wat u say match a not i no one ok...dun take mi for sum tom dick or harry la...

i no mani ppl hav similar probs i hav...ya i agree the sources r diff...but the fact is mani ppl r veri stressed lik mi...i admit tt fact...but the thing is...i no when i need help...dun tell mi its normal...coz if i can accept it...i wun b askin for any help...so if u r goin to tell mi things lik its normal or stuff lik tt...save ur silva la...not tryin b crude or wat la...but u all shld no wat i mean...
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24hrRu!
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sori abt the tone n lvl of kb in dis entry...but realli cant take it le...

i no after writin dis entry i still will hav to come back to reality...n frankin speakin lik wat i said in the previous entry...i write all dis not in hope tt sumone will realli come to my "rescue"...but juz for the sake of relievin my temporary stress...if not i dun tink i can slp...

so ya la...tts the msg i wan to send across...anyway for dose hu hav been readin but nv tag one...pls dun go ard tellin everyone abt my blog n its content...i dun wan to hav ppl to juz come n c c look look for leisure...i dun need such readers...dey wan to no wats goin on...dey will find deir way here demselves...coz i no for time to come...i most probably will write things lik tt often given the situation lik tt...haiz...

msg of the day:i wish i cld escape from reality n go for holiday in my fanstasy...