chong dong

well...today is the usual sunday post...although i dun always post on sundays...but a lot of the recent entries r written on sundays...well...juz finish watchin 2002...well although its sort of an action film...it nv failed to add a bit of romance to it...well...i duno wat to say...i always get dis dampenin feelin everytime i watch romance...new age sensitive man? haha...duno...mayb...

anyways now typin in the dark...coz the bulb spoil...so cant study...i mean i cant study in dis rm...n any of the other rms since my mother n bro is slpin oredi...den livin rm my father watchin tv...kitchen leh...erm...its weird la...nvm la...i goin to slp early n wake up early to study...mayb after dis entry ba...as long as dere is nth left to do tt is...

well... juz now while typin dis...she sms mi...its a gd luck sms for my exams...i oso sms back to wish her gd luck n all dose la...well i do get sms from her from time to time...hav short chats durin her breaks...seriously...i haven realli said anything abt her in my blog b4...i dun even no if she got visit a not...but anyways...i always hold the stand tt i write i wan on my blog...n ppl hu reads it r close friends...so i dun realli mind...so if U r readin...i hope u dun mind...anyway...if u haven being readin n happen to come across dis...i nv reveal ur identity here b4...so ppl readin wun no...

anyways kind of missed her...o hu m i kiddin...kind of...haha...although i do catch a glimpse of her sumtimes when i go b to sch...but i onli dare to watch from far...nv dared to approach...aiya...its always lik tt one la...its lik either way i will lose her...does it realli mean we will stay the way we r forever...mayb it was juz fated to b dis way...

its such a joke man...dere is so muc things in dis world tt r totally unreasonable...yet i can accept dem...but i juz cant accept dis kind of things...ppl always say u juz haven meet ur rite one...i oso always say tt to ppl...but...y izzit nv the rite one...

yesterday nite...for the past week...i hav been tinkin abt the song tt i wrote for her...n i felt a rush to finish edittin the song dere n den...but o well...it cant b done...coz i m tied down by A lvl...n i oso haven get my guitar...but i oredi decided...i will get it ASAP...well i m pretty determine to do sum stuff after my A lvl...i dun wan to lose dis chance to do wat i realli wan...i dun wan to regret...i can regret abt anything but dis...U stand a veri impt position in my life...no matter wat is the outcome betw us...

i wan to take dis chance to thank u...b4 i fall into dispair again...if i ever do again...realli...coz u realli meant a lot to mi...i haven realli tell a lot ppl abt y i lik u...but after tt day i straighten things out wit my mother n bro...i feel the more tt i need to let u no dis...u realli hav been the most carin person i hav ever meet...u hav shown concern to mi den anyone hav ever did...u might ask wat abt my mother...yes i no she cares for mi...but o well...i m odd...i lik to c n hear it...but not juz no it...

u were able to relief mi from the loniness down in mi...care n concern has nv being anything lik dis...it is realli as if u r the angel sent to bring mi lite...n for once in my life...i felt realli motivated to do sth tt is rite...although tt motivation didnt last long due to uther disappointment...but realli it is oredi so muc so muc tt u hav done for mi...n takin into consideration the amt of time tt we realli took to no each other...its realli a miracle...a miracle i say...so doesnt tt giv mi enuff reason to say I Love U...if no...i cld support myself wit more evidence...but wats the pt...
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i realli hate it when ppl walk into my life n wants to exit the moment dey step in...i mean wats wrong wit mi tt u hav to do dis...did i do anything wrong to deserve dis at all...y muz it b lik tt...i m a person hu holds any kind of relationship dearly...so pls dun play ard wit my feelins...i no dis may sound gay or sissy or watever la...but i m ezly hurt...

in the past when i m hurt...i cld juz relieve myself by tearin...but it seems tt my tear glands hav stop functionin ever since duno when...emotions can onli b traped deep within...

argh...wat the crap...i duno y i m bloggin dis entry in the first place...

msg of the day:reality is always the last place i wan to b...