in the midst of the tension

i m always amazed wit the lvl of relacness i can keep even in the midst of such tension...but yet i can b dam anxious wit things tt shldnt b of my concern in the first place...

well one simple exam is dis few nitez...coz dis few nitez i cant realli slp well...but its not bcoz of exams...stunin rite...lol...surprisinly i keep tinkin abt my song n guitar...well...i haven get my guitar yet though...but i will get it soon...late next week but definitely by the end of the mth...i duno if i m being too ambious wit the guitar thingy a not...coz wat i hav in mine is to compose a tune for my song on my own...but hey...i m juz goin for a simple ez tune...but its not goin to b ez...since i m an instrument idiot...i mean i had nv being gd wit music instruments...so i hav to start from scratch wit the tunes...

another eg is nan hua...i mean strictly speakin watever happens to nan hua has nth to do wit mi...not at least directly...so strictly speakin i shldnt b gettin all worried over the kids...but dis is the part where we make a choice in life again...goin back is not bcoz it has anything to do wit mi...to mi i feel tt its a kind of responsibility i wld lik to take up...not bcoz of anything...onli bcoz i choose to...responsiblity of a senior(tt once again is not an obligation but a choice)...responsibility of a friend...responsibility of a student/disciple...the list juz goes on...coz all dis things is the things tt made u decide on wat u hav decided...n the reasons can b totally diff for ppl decidin on doin the same thing...

ok la...i tink i dun wan to continue on tt...i tink its gettin veri confusin...nvm...i will juz summarise...wat we do in life is all a choice...u mayb facin great stress...but its ur choice to stay true n happi...
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i hav been talkin dis "song" for a while now...for ppl interested to take a look at it(look coz the tune is not done yet...actually the lyrics needs fine tuning too...)i onli can say...u all hav to wait lor...but den again hor...i duno whether i shld post it...coz its composed for sumone special...now onli the 2 of us hav the lyrics to the song...sum of the SHIN guys hu hav saw it b4 surely hav forgotten how its lik by now...so ya lor...we will c how ba...its up to my choice...haha...but if u realli realli wan to take look den...talk to mi again ba...(not say its a master piece tt can compare to jay or hu ever la...but dere r still ppl hu might wan to take a look one...out of curiousity? haha...)

msg of the day:dun let fate decide for u...let choice b ur light....