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wa lao...i feelin super f up now...sianz ar...nth is goin rite lor...i realli duno wat to say...i sumtimes realli wonder if the super beings lik to watch mi suffer...watch mi in pain n agony...i realli feel lik lettin everything out now...i feel so stuffed up...realli realli bottled up...i wan to find sumone to turn to...but nobody is ever dere...wao lao i dun even no wat i m doin n wat i shld do...

sumtimes i realli doubt myself...do i realli hav the capability to go on lik dis...honestly...i recieve more complains abt others life den mi complainin abt my own life...i guess sad enuff its as muc as my blog entries...nth more...zzz

sumtimes i realli dun understand how ppl tink one leh...i mean lik y dun ppl get wat u mean...even after lik 1 million times of naggin...lik omg la...dis is so tirin...i realli wan to collaspe le...

sumtimes i tink all my probs come from all dis stress tt collect over time lor...my STM n my tendcy of fallin aslp in almost any place...duno la...i realli need a break from reality man...but i dun wan to face up to the fact tt it is impossible...

i feel as if i m fightin alone...sum of the things i face alone...sum even if got others ard still will hav the alone in the crowd feelin...my life force is weakenin...nowadays i no longer hav the drive to face my life...i dun understand y noone can understand wat i m tokin abt...let alone wat i m goin thru...m i tt complicated tt i cant b understood...

everyone hav limited amt time...tt includes mi...but seriously i sumtimes hav to literally rot my time away so tt i numb myself...i always wan to try to do as muc as i can wit my time...but izzit worth it...

after writin so long liao...i dun even no wat else is dere to write...i realli still got a lot a lot to say...but i nv hav the heart to say it all out...coz i scared i will b being selfish n wan to hog all the attention to myself...by keep tokin abt my stuff...so i nv realli complete wat i wan to say...i realli juz wan to spit it all out...but can i do it...CAN I? zzz...dis is ptless...nth ever works...

i realli muz being a hell of a sinner in my previous life...now i guess its time for mi to suffer the torture of dis lifetime...

the more i crap the more i duno wat else to do for myself...all i ever no is others...it was nv abt myself in the first place...i guess i juz hav too little self worth for myself...zzz...o well...i dun wan to write le la...the more i write...the more lost i feel...but watever it is la...ppl readin...tt is if u r still readin...juz ignore all dis la...i mean lik...to mi i m brainwashed everyday...so by the time i blog again...i wld hav forgotten wat i blog the last time...n i will juz cock the same shit over again...o well i guess my life was destined to b lik tt...fate was nv fair...
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i was chattin wit ppl...ok consolin is more the word...but watever...so i was browsin the net in btwn the replies...den i saw her photos...new uploaded ones...yeah she looked darn chio n all...but i duno y...weird enuff...i got all blue...zzz...wich is y i was tinkin abt how f up my life is...n mayb the birth of dis entry came abt...

i m no longer sure shld i continue to try to win her heart...in the past i always stick to my beliefs...my philosophy...i dun care wat others tink or wat others say...i always wan to stay true to my heart...but now...i m so staggered by everything tt is goin on btwn us...i m no longer sure not coz i hav started losin interest in her...in fact i m sinkin deeper...but the prob is i dun tink tt i m the rite match for her...lookin at the cases ard mi...i realli feel tt mayb she deserve sumone better...mayb sumone hu wld provide better care n concern...n mayb more handsome n tall den mi...

true love tells mi to stay strong...my sixth sense tells mi tt i m buggin her...holdin her back...my personality tells mi to b stubborn...n stay put...but my brains tells mi tt she is tired of mi...hey come on la...hu m i kiddin la...it is so obvious tt things r nv goin to work out...mircales nv happen...at least not to mi...although for once i tot i didnt make the wrong choice to stay alive...but i guess i m wrong again...

sumtimes i realli hate my sixth sense...always tellin mi things tt i dun wish to no...i oso hate my brains for deductin things wit logic n psychology...resultin in unwanted stress...wish i cld juz throw dem away...haiz...being innocent n simple is always the best...but i guess tt will nv b mi...

i realli wan to b the one...but reality has checked in again...the lite is extinguishin...the next wld the life...

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