100% reality restored

yes finally... i haven blogged for a veri long time...a lot of things happened in btwn...but either didnt find time or didnt find energy to blog it down...tts y the blog is so quiet...but i told myself i today will try to blog...so i leave sum work aside so tt i cld blog...but dun wori la... its nth impt la...so its alrite...

anyway ppl hu has seen my nick oredi muz b wonderin wat i mean rite...well for ppl hu shld no i guess u shld oredi no by now...juz tt mayb u didnt catch tt the reality in dis case means wat...as for ppl hu do not need to no...well i m not goin to spell it out here...all i can say is...i made my decision...ahead of time...b4 the time i set for myself to do the tinkin...

reality in dis sense pt to several things...the more sensitive part is the part tt i wun touch on a lot..but i will write sth abt it at the btm...as for the other parts...i juz realise yesterday nite...as in the true meanin of wakin up to reality...

well basically yesterday was hell of a day... coz i discovered mani things...ok la...mayb its more of admittin things den to discover...coz i no tt i hav been decievin myself abt things...n i dun wan to admit up to dem...den after tt when i m reminded abt dem i feel sad...n dis keeps on goin...so yesterday i more or less woke myself up...

so here i now officially admit tt i no i hav been actin as if i was sumone hu cant b done w/o sumone great...sumone to b remembered...but at the same time...in reality i wasnt...i tink dis is the biggest prob wit mi...n bcoz of dis i hav committed countless mistakes in the past...i tink dis was destined to b dis way...as in for mi to b the one to realise dis on my own...n not let sumone else tell mi dis...but dere was once where sumone came close to tellin mi dis... i duno if tt person still remembers...i doubt she does...coz she forgot on the day she said it...she said sth lik "stop assumin tt u no everything...coz u duno everything..." sth lik tt...quite awhile back...so i oso cant remember clearly...

well the pt is...now tt i hav officially admit dis prob of mine...i will try to suppress it...i dun wish to make anymore mistakes bcoz of dis...i mean i m comin to a new chap in life...in another 2 + years i will b officially a adult...so dere isnt much space for mi to make such ridiculous mistakes...ppl readin might tink tt i m tinkin too muc...yes mayb u r rite...but u hav to admit tt i hav a pt here...dis i no...

so i will wake up to reality now...tt is i m juz a normal guy lik everyone else...nth great abt mi...so i shall keep my profile low when i go army to prevent the same shit from araisin again...

anyway i tink i will b bloggin more dis few days if i hav the time to...coz i wun b bloggin for a week while in tekong...haiz... although its onli a week away from humanity...but the feelin is realli so unbearable...juz feel tt lik i m not ready leh...duno la...
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dis few days i hav been tinkin abt how to make my life n lives of ppl ard mi happier...well...tts y i made tt decision...i guess miraculousfate is nv to b...so i shld stop decievin myself...n make the best out of both our lives...u may relate to the love movies where the guy make sacri for the gal in order for her to b happi...well i wun say i m so wei da...but i realli hope for her to b happi...

tts y i prepared a special present dis xmas...its nth veri ex...but i guess its veri meaninful...hope she will lik it...n catch the msg i m tryin to send across to her...

anyway i started to read a bk abt happiness...the bk teaches ppl how to b happi...n i came to a conclusion tt...it still boils down to a choice of whether u wan to b happi a not...coz we cld always choose btwn being optimistic or pessimistic...doin the rite choice is veri impt...n of course the standard ans for the rite choice is to b happi...n true enuff... the bk goes on to giv sum stats wich is the results of the findins of scientists... regardin wat happiness will bring...eg is tt happiness has a direct link to performance...the exact figures r even given...

well i wun say recommend the bk...coz dis kind of bks r all over the place...i m sure all the author hav more or less the same contents...n if u wan to read dem dey r always avaible in the libraries...its onli whether if u r interested in readin dem in the first place... for mi...i lik to enrich myself...n b a human psychology no it all...n of course durin the course of time...configure a better mi...but the bk did remind ppl lik mi to first b able to accept the original self...b4 attemptin to change myself...tt way i wld happier...n hav less disappointment if i fail to change myself...so wit tt i end dis entry...hope i hav provided a food for tot here...

msg of the day:All i can do is pt n hope u look...