Celebrate?

today actually wanted to blog in the mornin...but den coz i was in a hurry...so in the end didnt...well now i m at kbox wit a rather big grp...

well now kinda hav a mix feelin...suppose to b happi one...but den duno y leh...the atmosphere was kinda weird at least to mi...

dose hu were dere muz b tinkin...den y didnt i voice it out...yeah i no its for mi...the party tt is...but i myself oso duno how to ans tt qn...i realli dun feel tt things r alrite...once again at least for mi...

btw i m writin dis by hand as we r singin...i duno is ppl dun wan to disturb mi or wat la... o well...it doesnt matter...

i realli wan to feel high n happi...juz lik the happi man i m aimin to b... but the reality is tt it is not so ez to do it even for the mi now...i feel not alrite now... i can choose to continue lik tt or try to force myself to high...i dun wan to spoil the nite juz bcoz of mi...

acutally now i dun realli hav a headache or anything...but i can feel it comin on tho...well if i wan to put things in a crude way...i m a veri demandin man...dun try to satisfy mi...i will try to do tt on own... actually if u guys happi its gd enuff for mi le...i m veri touched by everyone oredi liao...realli... so regardless of whether i got thank everyone for comin a not... i wish to thank everyone again...
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24hrRu!
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i m strugglin wit the demon within mi now...i feel so alone...so sad...i duno wat to say... i m sufferin...realli veri xing ku...

but i no i hav to go thru dis myself...noone can help mi except myself...i need time...giv mi time...realli...i duno how long...mayb a few years...i dun wish to tink abt it...

mayb goin to the army now is a gd idea...at least now i no i had made the rite decision...now u r happier...i m happi for u too...

but now i juz hav to fight myself...b wit mi...Fate...

msg of the day:sacrifice is inevitable,but it is bearable as long as u r by myside...