Boy to man 4 & 5

basically dis entry will b bloggin abt wat happened on the 4th n 5th day...coz dose days i didnt hav time to write...coz was bz crappin wit my bunkmates...

anyway on thur we did summore foot drills...n had our xmas lunch...it was great...at least given the consideration of being in army n all...lol...den had another lecture...n shortly after tt we got to no where we r posted to...for mi i m posted to HQ RSAF...well altho so...i m asked to report to CMPB instead...i guess we hav to go thru a introductory course or sth lik tt ba...lol...den at nite crap a lot wit my bunkmates...n oso navy...tt nite we tok to him more n understood him more...well at least now we no tt sum of his actions r coz of his sickness...so i guess cant blame him ba...anyway all of us chat until so engrossed...tt we didnt even notice the time...lol...den go to bed shortly at lights out...

den the next day...nth muc lor...we all packed up our stuff...n waited for bk out lor...everyone was veri high...lol...coz bk out day wat...den got one idoit loss his hp...den made all of us wait coz of him...in the end oso nv find...den after tt took a cab home lor...den got bz wit the unpackin n the orientation of the new stuff online...

so tt abt sum up my slacky 5 days 4 nite stay in tekong...well as slack as it got...it was at least enrichin...at least i was able to bring stuff back wit mi...as in learnt now stuff...n oso c now aspect n perspective of life...it was short but fruitful...
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juz now after sendin her home...i was waitin for the bus...well hav a lot of tots...mayb coz of wat i told her b4 she went up...coz i was tellin her abt my fear for the transition period from sec sch to jc...as in for her la...even if only as a friend...well...i hav admitted b4...i dun lik changes...so it can partly explain y i feel so insecure abt the whole thing...

as i was sayin...i was runnin a lot of tots thru my mind at the bus stop...its suppose to b a normal rountine la...but den...haiz...i dare to tink abt wat the future holds...i feel insecure abt my future...now things may look ok...but if sth goes wrong...den i tink i might fall back into depression again...i duno la...i shldnt tink...i shld focus on pullin myself out first...its more logical n oso impt...haiz...

i guess i m still not ready for reality...altho i did face it...but i guess i still cldnt stand it yet...happy man? not yet...being "stabbed" in the heart few times in a row dis few days...pain ar...bleedin lik hell lor...tong ku ar...duno hu to tell...hu to confide...lost once again...i guess i will once again drown myself wit work as usual...haiz...

aiya...complain oso no use...endure n endure lor...

PS:Fate if u r readin dis...pls understand tt dere is no need to b any reaction to dis tots...as in in the whole blog in fact...coz if dere is a need to get response from u...i will do it personally one...dis is juz my ave to destress...so dun wori...my tots may sumtimes get out of control at times...dis is y i blog...so hey...maintain balance...smilez =)

msg of the day:once u step in...pls dun step out...