hidden truth

now i m in the office doin nth...smsin onli...borin...it went to the extent tt i was lookin at classified la...but also bo bian...i finished all the assigned work chief gave me...den today she not ard...so cant assign more work...now onli can wait here n c how lor...i tired to read mr LOTR...but den read a bit tired liao...lol...lousy...well i still cant get along wit books...lol...

tml is the prom liao...duno wat to expect leh...gd or bad duno...but i hope i m not the onli one wearin so formal tml...den the followin day new year day eve...duno wat things r being planned...hope it will b gd... if not one day will b wasted...lol...
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recently my mind veri lost...cant tink straight...i tink if my patients come to mi now...i will hav a terrible time tryin to tink of wat to say...let alone help them...dis is actually irritating...zzz...need time for tunin...i used to b a speed writer...now i feel tt as if my mind got some sort of blockage or sth...veri cham...now ask mi to write sth simple...i also muz take a veri long time...this better not b permanent man...i mean there are little things tt i can b proud of myself...n dis is one of dem...at work...dey ask mi to tink of suggestions...i take a bloody long time to tink...crap... n worse nth came out lor...wats wrong man...ya la i no tt i onli here for officially the 2nd day...but den it still sux to feel dis way...

actually i hope i can do more to help...GA...GA...GA dun help is bullshit lor...life is so short n finite...realli wan to make the best for the rest...i no dis sounds crazy or crappy...but ever since tt accident i feel as tho i hav been entrusted wit the job of being a GA...an Angel's advocate...n sumhow regardless of the sacrifice i hav to make to make one person happy...i will still feel charged n ready to go again...actually i got tink b4 leh...if i cld leave dis world bcoz i saved sumone i wld feel veri accomplished...as tho i m promoted to heaven...but of course its not coz i wan tt person to carry guilt for the rest of his or her life la...

but at the end of the day...helpin others is one thing...others helpin u is another...i no a lot of ppl ard mi r helpin mi lot...but seriously la...where is my GA...i no dis sounds veri despo la...but sumtimes i juz cant help feelin the chips in my heart...everytime sumone leaves...dey hav to take one piece n walk off juz lik tt...does anyone no how torturous tt is...so i m not askin for a promotion... i onli wish to find my GA...one tt is able to fill my heart...

Fate...Destiny...if u ppl arent my GA...den hu cld it b...my flame is dyin out...

msg of the day:take my wings n shin mi tt i will bring happiness...will u too?