wat hav i done wrong to deserve dis...

today was suppose n initially a gd day...manage to spend sum time wit Fate...performed again since last chingay...i mean lik i m not realli as into dancin as zhongyi la...but i mean after being in dance for such a long time...i still do carve for a gd dance...but of course my standards not veri high one...BUT...sum ppl juz hav to spoil my day...n ya Fate one too...

i mean lik wat r u tryin to do...ok la...mayb not onli u...mayb its u all...but it is not impt...the thing is i duno whether the things tt u r tokin bhind our backs is for wat reason or motive...but if its bcoz of the apparent reason...den i tink u r being unreasonable...i mean hu r u to critise...bloody hell...n dun u tink tt ur tinkin is VERI childish...wat does my presence has anything to do wit whether u can tok to another person a not...its not lik i forbid the communication lik tt lor...dis is rubbish lor...

den if u r lightin the fire juz bcoz u dun lik mi or wat so ever...den y the fuck do u hav to drag her into dis too...did u deliberately do it to piss mi off or u tink its fun...na heia...u not happi at mi...den juz come for mi...dun drag her or other ppl in...i dun care u boy or gal...not happi thrash things out la...i rather get shoot from the front oso wun appect being attacked from the back...in dis case worse...u attacked her!

juz now i didnt no whether to feel angry wit the whole shit or to feel disappointed...or even sad...i mean lik now i m angry...but disappointed coz i tot u hav matured...but it seems tt u nv did...tts juz so sad...for u...pls la...its time to grow up...sad is coz sumhow dis thing has affected mani other things...n i m veri annoyed by the whole issue...

i hav a condition one...i no...i no myself well enuff...dere r things tt i can ren...but dere r oso things tt i cant...n dis i CANT...juz now i was abt to do sth unrational...but lucky for everyone...Fate was wit mi until my temper lighten up a bit...i duno y i still bother wit all dis crap...

all my 2nd life...i hav been tryin to b of my best side all the time...tryin to b an angel...help ppl...make ppls day...yes i do break ppls day too...but lik wtf...wat hav i done wrong to deserve dis...na heia...at dis pt...i realli feel tt mayb life 2 has been long enuff...
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lucky for mi...not all my FRIENDS r lik tt...i realli thank dose hu helped mi calm down...one even showed such a touchin gesture...tt i cant help it but c the light at the end of dis btmless pit...

no matter wat happens to mi...at least i no in life 2 my time wasnt wasted...coz i was abt touch ppls life n my life was touched too...ppl may walk in n out...but dere is always a grp tt r here to stay...tts all the encouragement i need...a 10q might not b enuff...but it expresses the thousands of words tt i hav to say...so...10z ppl...

Fate: i duno whether u will b readin dis a not...at least even if u read...u wun b readin in the near future...but the thing is...i may not bare to walk away from the way things r now...but if dere is a need...i will silently walk away...painful it mayb...but deres nth else i cld do...10z for the encouragements...little dey mayb...dey still mean a lot to mi...

I may not have wished for this,but i dare not ask for more. I just want to be with you.

msg of the day:i hav tried my best...yet i wasnt able to achieve my goal...